It’s crazy to me that it was just about a year ago that I wrote this post about changing our minds about having children.
Nothing huge has changed since that time. I’ve read half a dozen books on parenting, pregnancy, and birth. My feed burner and social media feeds now include a handful of people who write about parenting, natural childbirth, and attachment parenting. I have all sorts of ideas about the way I want to do things. I’m sure little will smash all of those plans, but I can’t help but plan in some way. I’ve spoken to my doctor about this once and will go to a “pre-conception” doctor’s appointment this summer and possibly start checking out midwives and doulas. I’m hoping that the summer affords me more time to read up on this stuff. Be prepared for this blog to (hopefully) turn into mommy central sometime in the next year.
In the year before we moved to Colorado, I often had “this is the last time I’ll do X” thoughts. Similar to that time, more than once in the past year I have thought “this is very possibly the last time I will do X as a person without a child.” I’m sure that sounds neurotic to some of you, but it’s who I am. I’m a planner. Everything is planned in every way I can plan it, but I am always open to a change in plans. Change in plans is always ok with me. No plan is typically not ok. I learned this in my numerous trips to serve overseas. Always remain flexible, but always be intentional. I know all the parents reading this are laughing at me right now. We’ll see how/if this part of me changes with a kid.
More and more I already see how God is using just the thought of having a child to mold me into a better version of me. It’s humbling, exciting, terrifying, and encouraging all at the same time.
Husband set a goal of getting a blue belt in jiu-jitsu before little arrives. I don’t have a goal. Should I? What do you suggest? I’ll keep you posted as things evolve. I have one book left that I definitely intend to read. If anyone has books, blogs, twitter folks, or podcasts you think I’d find interesting regarding parenting/childbirth, please pass them along. I’m currently leaning toward natural childbirth with a midwife at a birthing center attached to a hospital as well as attachment-style parenting.